i'm sorry... goodbye

I hope you guys understand, I needed to share this, this has been such a difficult year, and something I've never shared before, but after feeling so alone with this, it nearly broke me and left me feeling lost and hurt. I was so close to giving up everything, and saying goodbye that I recorded this and just wanted to say sorry and leave. This has been a life long struggle for me, and even though I've been taking steps to heal, it's still so hard. But instead of holding it in longer, which was making it so much worse, I thought I'd share it and finally let go.

I dedicate this film to anyone who's ever felt alone, lost, or afraid to say what you need to say to those who need to hear. I just want you to know, I hear you, always.

Please share this with someone who may find this encouraging.

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